Only You In My Heart

2007-02-06T02:39:00.000+08:00

My little Angels.....One is sisters kid Shereen another is bro's kid Fatimah....My Little Princess are my most precious gift from Allah after my husband....

My Sunshine..........

2007-02-06T02:31:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah..by the grace of Allah i'm now an aunty for the second time after 47 days of my first niece birth...... so happy to received the news n was bit sad as well as till now me yet to get kid of my own........ my younger sister has becum a supermum n the little angel is so cute n adorable....like a doll...... i'm dying to fly to singapore but right now i cant travel anywhere till my 5years visa here has been stamped by the govenment of india......... this is india the system is so slow .... 4mths has passed since i've submitted my application dono till how many mths more i still have to wait........ life is getting better for me here in bangalore,india. hubby is doing fine with his work so i'm like a queen now every weekend shopping n shopping..........but like i said i wanna kid so i feel rather empty inside........pray for me that i will becum a supermum soon..............

2006-12-08T00:52:00.000+08:00

After long wait finally today at around 2pm singapore time my sister in law safely delivered my little princess .......very happy n very sad to receive the news.......i'm an aunty for the first time n sadly i'm not there to kiss n hug the little cutie on her first day of life...... may Allah keep both mother n daughter healthy always......it was not an easy labour ...for hours she was in pain n had to be operated ...... so much for this little bundle of joy is sure worth it......... insha Allah i will be there to meet , kiss n even bite her in late march......i told my mother to buy for my sister in law 2 boxes of ' pati ikan haruan ' n for my liitle darling's gift i will give her personally when i fly there....of course a speacial gift from her loving aunt......n next mth my sister will give birth to a girl .... so i'll buy for both same gift........a gift which they will remember me an aunty who is far from the eyes but very close to the heart............pray for me that soon will be my turn to becum a mum.........Ameen

2006-12-07T01:13:00.002+08:00

Today i'm extremely happy and extremely anxious as i'm going to becum an aunty for the first time.... my brother's kid is on the way to this world any moment from now...wonder if it will be a girl or boy but hopefully a boy.... coz my sister is expecting a girl end of next mth....... since 2.00pm today i was updated that my sis in law was in labour but till now at 10.47pm no news yet that she has given birth.... may Allah give her easy labour n healthy baby.... my blood runs in the baby too so i'm equally worried n happy for them......... the weather here is very very cold cant bear the coldness...... last friday we had nice outing with hubby n his frends together with his 3 employer.........all men n only me lady........ we had briyani for lunch n chappati for dinner............ nothing much to tell but soon will update my little bundle of joy story .... pray for my little darling to enter this beautiful world safely n happily..........Good Day......!!!!!

2006-11-26T01:23:00.000+08:00

What a boring day today is........hubby would be back after 9pm every sat n sunday as he is doing his MBA course.......i made pizza but the base was overcooked.......still my darling hubby ate happily n praise me for making sumthing new for him........what a loving hubby he is...hehehe.....first few years of marriage like that i guess...so romantic n so loving......... it's just that heart feel rather incomplete without baby in life.....pray hard that very soon i will becum a mother n even he is dying to becum a dad.......... here in bangalore not many lovely places to visit .... but it is bigger than our singapore...... since we have car it's easy for us to roam southern part of india but to date only few places we have visited......i love Goa the most ....scenic spots........lovely beaches where many hindi films would be doing shooting....... we won free stay in 5 star Goa hotel n mangalore resort ..wow ! will be going there after a mth or two maybe........as hubby is busy with his work.now ....

2006-11-25T02:22:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah.......after long wait finally on 27 april 2006 i'm back with my dearest hubby.. with so much love we start a brand new life together n end all sad episodes of our life...... now i'm enjoying myself being a wife n leading a comfortable life....by the grace of Allah........ we just had dinner at cosy restaurant...we had seafood.......every friday is our family outing......... india is such a big land n we r in bangalore, where IT giant is .......we went to mysore n goa recently..... such a beautiful place for vacation........ will update our photos later......... sumtimes i do miss singapore , miss my lovely frends n family but i'm happy with my life here ,hubby has a career here so i guess my rizqi is here only for now..... being a housewife is rather boring n just not meant for me but i'm adjusting to it....... every morning me n hubby will go to the gym ...... i wanna lose weight n he wanna build up muscle....... hubby is a big spender so he would do lots of shopping for me..... since i came here abt 7mths ago i have at least 10 new dresses n there's more to cum including saree....... hehehe.....

2005-06-25T15:37:00.000+08:00

Today is my 11mth wedding anniversary......after 30 days will be one year being a wife....hopefully will soon be with hubby.....hubby said by todya will get sum news regarding my visa....almost give up hope but still deep inside my heart i want to go there...i've waited this long for jeddah i know i cant give up hope now....

2005-06-24T09:56:00.000+08:00

Didnt sleep well last nite......feel so restless n keep going in n out of the toilet......made myself ice milo n bite sumthing b4 force myself to sleep.... so bad my days....daytime feel bored to death nitetime so lonely....normally hubby would joke wif me or massage my shoulder......the feeling is so wonderful to have a man beside u....

2005-06-23T21:07:00.000+08:00

Feel like killing that girl...so much for my kindness....she go around and badmouthing me juz bcoz she's frustrated she hasnt got any man.... it's all written who will get married first.....i've been trying to help but how i can force anyone to marry her??? such silly act n childish of her..... everyone is the same in Allah's eyes....who is she to put me down n hurt my feelings????

2005-06-23T21:02:00.000+08:00

Feel so restless at home these days despite dining out so often.....july is coming...how time flies.....half yr of 2005 is gone.......juz wish that life will treat me kinder.....give me sum happiness n take away my loneliness....

2005-06-15T13:48:00.000+08:00

Wow!! another invitation this weekend....this cums from my "long lost" frend..... she gonna be a bride this sunday.....we have known each other since 20 over years.....since my pre-school days....she's far better than me in many ways.....juz wish that everyone would find their lifetime partner n live together happily forever.....

2005-06-12T10:52:00.000+08:00

Good Morning!!! Last nite having dinner with zarina at afghan eatery n enjoying MCDonald's ice cream as well........ Today going to see charm n her groom...the reception is today....wish them an everlasting love n marraige....I feel upset of myself for not able to be with hubby yet...my heart feel so heavy to go but i don wish to spoil my day n disappoint charm so will still go n see the happy couple....

2005-06-06T20:14:00.000+08:00

Nowdays have so many online frends n join few friendship websites...feel so bored still...last sat went out with new frend n roam around at someset area juz for window shopping...we juz had gd meal at east point banquet n later in teh late afternoon at komalas villas ,city hall...nothing else intrest me except for food.....feel so down looking at others going out as a couple or together with family....miz hubby alot....those days when he would feed me and keep me company....

2005-06-02T20:48:00.000+08:00

Feel so bored to death these days..... dono what to do...always on the net n chatting on the phone...hopefully get my visa by next wk.....cant wait anymore.....it has been more than half a yr....

2005-06-01T11:33:00.000+08:00

Had a wonderful evening yesterday though waited long time for zarina to cum.....tot i would be happy going to the changi airport for sweet memories of me receiving n sending hubby off 3 times is there......sadly......i felt so heartbroken n almost burst into tears.....i hold back my tears n hide my sadness.....had good meal at MCDonald.....a place hubby love to take me as i enjoy fish fillet... the whole nite couldnt sleep...miz my hubby alot n alot......

2005-05-31T12:58:00.000+08:00

Gonna have dinner with my new buddy..... Wish to go to changi airport...memorable place for me....met my hubby for the first time...few times fetch n send him off to jeddah......hopefully very soon i will get to travel to jeddah n us b reunited again......

2005-05-27T14:56:00.000+08:00

Dream abt hubby n jeddah these days.... for a small wish yet a high price to pay..... I miz hubby terribly...nobody can understand my sadness n the emptiness inside my heart.....Everyone has the same dreams in life....to live happily with tehir loved ones.......life is full of setbacks n we have to learn to take things in our stride but i cant help feeling so devastated abt the whole episode of my life...what a rocky journey......i'm a laughing stock now but i know one day i will have the last laugh, Insya ALlah...i believe Allah is fair to everyone.......

2005-05-23T20:37:00.000+08:00

wonder y it was silly of me 2 purchase ticket to delhi without enquire abt the terms n condition........That lady agent was also stupid she shud have call me b4 issuing the ticket n tell me there's penalty fee if i wish to change the departure date........i have to pay $30 xtra for nothing....shud hav juz walk away....teh next day i felt like staying in jeddah....so i kindly ask for refund..she's not sure abt it.....i was told by a frend if it was speacial fare cannot get refund....$530 is gone...no way i will keep mum abt it........they r at fault shud let me know the term n condition n cant issue ticket b4 informing me.....now what i shall do????

2005-05-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

So cute rite my hubby's nephew who was born on 7 May 2005.......he has small eyes exactly like my darling hubby........Shayaan is his name.... he'll grow up to be a handsome man insya Allah.........Hubby said very soon i will be flying to india.........on 7 june insya Allah.......already book the ticket....wanna visit Taj mahal........

2005-05-17T15:44:00.000+08:00

What a brighter day today is......my father has a got better job n today is first day........my hubby called me early in the morning giving me the long awaited news.....his PR status has been changed.....can proceed with my family visa......today is also exactly 6mth since hubby left me.....the date 17 may..... many things to remember........both sweet n bitter moments........juz wish that everything will go smoothly.....

2005-05-15T17:04:00.000+08:00

Yesterday spent the whole evening at my uncle's house....feel so lonely without hubby.......many relatives asked me abt hubby...it upsets me alot.....y cant anyone pray for me instead of throwing hurtful remarks as if trying to sow discord between hubby n me......i hate singapore lives now n hate the people more.....everyone sure go thru bad times.... it's all parts n parcel of ones life.......if only everyone realise this n spare a tot for my feelings....

2005-05-14T14:47:00.000+08:00

I still cant tag on others but Lily , charm n varadidie i can.....those who use shoutbox i really cant leave any msg on ur tagboard.......feel so sad....cant drop a note to anyone.......cant make new friends.....cant reply to any msg or thanks any well wisher.....funny part is that even hubby cant leave me msg as he himself having same prob "cookies deactivated"

2005-05-13T18:10:00.000+08:00

Didnt sleep the whole nite yesterday....Miz my hubby n feel upset that i always makes him angry..........i never mean to but in depression unintentionally i hurt him n spoilt his mood........I juz wish that i'll be back in his arm again.........i've been waiting fo so long.........so much pain for a small wish.......life is full of contradictions.....

2005-05-12T14:35:00.000+08:00

Feel like having MCdonald's meal today....but it's raining......i'm fasting so during breaking fast shud enjoy sumthing i like....indulge myself with food i love.......i love eating good stuff.....if only hubby is here he'll take me out for meals.........hubby is a big spender...he doesnt know what is expensive or cheap......that is the advantage of having spendthrift hubby..........

2005-05-11T15:02:00.000+08:00

These days feel terribly bored n lonely......luckily Shazia keep calling me daily few times...but it's the same topic we'll talk.....hehehe...she desperately looking for a guy but me desperately miz my darling hubby.......she is so choosy....i wish i can advice her but afraid she might get me wrong n hurt her.....ours r rocky journey.......life is so dull n boring......

2005-05-09T22:15:00.000+08:00

Feel so lousy n down.....browsing for jobs.......wish to kill the time n earn more pocket money.....but hubby said anyhow we'll be going away in May.......don wish to waste any precious moments.....earn while u can.....the more money u have the better it is...........nothing is free in this world......so money si so important to everyone

2005-05-06T18:27:00.000+08:00

So mad with the msg left on my tagboard today.....juz who that fellow think of her/himself???? As if i can predict the future.......everyone wants the best for themselves........nobody wants to lead a lonely n miserable life.......i have good intention of intoducing guys to my best fren..it has nothing to do with YOU.........it was her request......her wish.......it's up to her decide how further they can go b4 deciding abt marriage......

2005-05-05T14:30:00.000+08:00

I'm doing a voluntary job nowdays...finding guys for my frens.......i dono how much i can trust these online frens but i hope to penetrate ways n oppurtunities for them.....i know how it feels to be single.....so lonely n empty inside........so i start with shazia first.....last nite i chat & send mail to a guy in UK......he seems serious n intrested......May they get hitched soon........Ameen........

2005-05-04T21:01:00.000+08:00

After reading doa given by Shazia i feel much better n calmer.....It's in urdu script so Shazia translated it for me........though i still had sleepless nite , i'm glad i didnt keep calling hubby.......else there goes my pocket money n savings......I'll be reduce to pauper very soon.......i guess prayer is the best way to release stress for Allah is the only one who can help me pull thru this crisis.........I believe all prayer will be answered........It juz a matter of time.........i need prayer from everyone out there as well........

2005-05-03T18:03:00.000+08:00

Juz came back from shazia's house.....my good fren who'll always lend me listening ear whenever i feel down n out.......strangely...i still don feel good in my heart n crying out loud for my dearest hubby....he's my only medicine i guess.......but fate is making spot of us...........i'm tired n helpless now.......i bought two calling card to jeddah........i don mind used up all my savings n the money hubby sent on phone bill.........i miz his voice badly......

2005-05-02T20:59:00.000+08:00

I'm tired of waiting n hoping anymore...... i'm so vulnerable....a victim of circumstances........wish to go to other country......for better life with hubby...saudi is not a good country.....this long i have to keep waiting...i have no more strength n patient........it seems like i give up hoping.....

2005-05-01T14:24:00.000+08:00

Another lonely holiday......today n tomorrow people will be happily going out together.........i'm still here cooping up at at home feeling tense n bored......... time passes juz like that n i c my life wasted many precious moments.....it breaks my heart everytime i think about it...life goes on n i know it's not the end of the world..........

2005-05-01T09:40:00.000+08:00

Uhhhhh...........talked with hubby for abt 1hr last nite..how much that would be......i couldnt sleep n my mind was really disturbed...... i want to be with him at any cost......but still waiting for any good news......i'm sick of waiting n waiting....i've waited long enuf......

2005-04-30T14:53:00.000+08:00

Feel extremely bored and down today.....keep having swing mood.... feel so hungry yet no appetite..... been trying to relax my mind n calm down but it only works for short while.... at this rate i'll surely suffer a breakdown...

2005-04-29T18:05:00.000+08:00

Been bz browsing for more recipes..... Deep in my heart i badly want to be a dutiful n doting wife as to bulid a warmth family......Been looking forward the day i'll be back in hubby's arms.....if only i could dig out my heart n show u how true my love is......How badly i miz u n need u by my side......i'm willing to go to any length to keep u happy but at times dear it's too much for me to bear....i'll lose my temper and going mad.......SORRY is but juz a few letters word......but u know we r victim of circumstances.......

2005-04-29T14:53:00.000+08:00

Today is friday.....hubby wont be working today....sadly i wont get to spend time with him...he'll be with his family there...........but hubby will come online after friday prayer.....how many more days i have to wait to be with hubby????.....it tear me apart everytime i think abt the times lost....8 mth is no joke darling.......Miz having food with u at McDonald....where we would feed each other lovingly...Hubby would buy for me my fav fillet meal.........

2005-04-28T17:56:00.000+08:00

looks like i have to pretend to be sick today...my father will kill me for spending $250 on phone bill.....the bill juz came ....i miz hubby alot n out of anger n frustration i keep calling him..............wonder y i still cant tag on ppl's tagboard...but i can tag charm on her tagboard....most bloggers use shoutbox but hers is shoutmix.....been seeking help from ppl yet it is still the same.......

2005-04-28T13:54:00.000+08:00

Woke up rather late..........i'm fasting today......so no lunch for me only dinner.........These days i've been feeling rather down maybe idling at home for more than than a mth makes me feel so bored n streesful.....luckily yesterday i went out for a while n met lily..how sweet of her.....I ask for two recipes yet she print out for me lots of recipes.......... Thanks alot Lily next time we can go out for a meal together..........Miz the good old days when i would be eating out and chatting happily with my friends....

2005-04-27T10:40:00.000+08:00

Feel like going somewhere to relax my mind..........but it seems like i don have anyone to go out with.....others r either working or bz with kids.....how i can stay at home with worries weighing heavily on my mind..........it disturbs my mind and burn me with anger........s a result i kept calling hubby n getting scolded last nite......i could sign up a holiday package with the money used to pay the intenational phone bills......

2005-04-26T21:19:00.000+08:00

I miz hubby so badly.....been praying hard to go there.....Ya Rab pls answer my prayer......as long as i'll be with him i wont mind going thru any hardships together..His love keeps me going.....and being miles apart killing me softly......i can even spent thousand of dollars on phone bills as i miz his voice but thinking back i would rather get him an expensive gift as to show him my true love......this is too much for me to bear...i want hubby...........

2005-04-25T15:26:00.000+08:00

Today exactly 9 mth we have been married......and today is also my 27th islamic birthday....for a small wish y i have to pay such a big price.....even i have dreams like other brides too.... little did i expect to live miles apart from hubby for so long......

2005-04-25T15:23:00.000+08:00

Miz being by hubby's side......out of 9 mth of marriage only 48 days we r together.....so sad and heartbreaking.......even till today i have to keep on waiting when will be day i'll be reunited with hubby...

2005-04-24T12:11:00.000+08:00

Woke up bright n early today........ Wonder what the future holds for me....Hubby has been scolding me for thinking alot........but well i guess almost all women r like that..........Today insya Allah hubby's PR status will be officially changed n he can apply for family visa soon after that...........Waiting anxiously for his good news.....Tomorrow i will collect money which hubby remit to me..........

2005-04-23T17:16:00.000+08:00

Two months without job makes me getting lazier and heavier......Hubby will kill me if he cums to know...... juz washed the bathroom........been having frequent headache....often would rub my forehead n back of neck with medicated oil......so much worries n missing my darling hubby..........miz the old good times and fun we had.....

2005-04-23T17:10:00.000+08:00

Been bz cleaning the room n write down various recipes.......almost done with the packing........ready to fly n cant wait for hubby to send letter to the ministry of foreign affairs......they will give the inviatation date......then i only i can get the visa to jeddah.........it seems i've not seen hubby for thousand over years.....miz him so beary much.......but hearing others worst stories makes me realise that life is full of setbacks....... but surely it's sunshine after rain.....anyway i'm gald that hubby didnt vanish.....he still keep in touch with me.......and send me money for expenses....it shows he loves me.........uuummmmhhh....love hubby.....

2005-04-22T13:56:00.000+08:00

I don understand this....been trying for few days to send msg on fren's tagboard yet failed.......cookies deactivated......what is that....????..... anything wrong with my PC...........i dono much abt IT browser...........Hubby is far away else he knows what to do ...he's in IT field only.......Anyone can tell me what is cookies deactivated???

2005-04-20T21:08:00.000+08:00

Since yesterday evening i've been having headache....Wonder is it due to the worries i have??? Yesterday i went to the dentist as my wisdom tooth need to be extracted... sadly.....the dentist said i need to go for operation to have it removed.....Hubby said better do it in jeddah.......i fear operations.....frens used to hav same prob n said the operation is quite painful...what i shall do??? taking painkillers daily to ease the pain????

2005-04-17T15:55:00.000+08:00

Today exactly 5mth since hubby left me....feel so hurt n devastated...... Wonder how many more days i have to live without hubby???? been hoping very fast i'll get my visa.......Next week will be our 9mth wedding anniversary and on the same day it will be my islamic birthday.....yet again hubby will not be by my side.....Isnt it too much pain for me to bear???

2005-04-15T11:50:00.000+08:00

Missing hubby makes me lose interest in many things..nothing i do really makes me happy.....My room is in a mess too.....gonna tidy up everything n fold more clothes n keep inside the luggage.......wont bring so many clothes as i want to buy new dresses there....i'm going to select various delicious recipes n bring it with me .....wanna whip up various dishes for hubby........wanna be a good n hubby's darling wife.....

2005-04-15T11:44:00.000+08:00

Had a good sleep last nite after calling hubby in the midle of the nite.....i've been like this since he left me......disturbed mind makes me keep calling him at cry....had a good cry last nite......miz him badly....more than words can say i need my hubby......i'm still young yet my body feel quite weak....been under lots of stress...days r going bad .........but i believe Allah will surely answer my prayer n reunite me with my darling hubby.....I LoVe HUBBY......n want to be with him like other married couples.......

2005-04-13T22:44:00.000+08:00

Called Hubby n vent my frustrations on him.....i have to change the departure date to 5th may 2004....hopefully wont need to delay it later than that.....soon i'll get money for expenses...i demand more this time as to make him step up on my going there...this is the best way to punish hubby for his wrongdoings and all those hurtful feelings i've swallowed bitterly...

2005-04-13T22:05:00.000+08:00

What is happening actually.....Keeps delaying my going there.....Till when i can ever reach jeddah? i'm tired.... half year almost pass and i'm still like this.....A muslim country shud allow a wife to be with hubby anytime.....cannot be separated longer than a month...i heard stories abt a couple staying apart for 2years....This world is going crazy.....ppl r heartless n selfish.....

2005-04-13T12:29:00.000+08:00

Woke up bright n early today......Fried instant prata bought at Mustafa Center...so delicious.....Same taste like buying from mama's shop......Then around 7.30 am went down to a shop selling bean curd...love buying it back in my working days for healthy breakfast.....today i'll be helping my mum in the kitchen cooking tomato rice....my fav food.....Yummy! Yummy! today i'm going to eat alot n alot...then tomorrow i'll have to fast n control my diet.....

2005-04-12T22:37:00.000+08:00

Met hubby online...miz him dearly........this pain is too much to bear......again hubby promise me that by 28th i can fly there..been praying hard for that.....i'll brave the storms to be with hubby........i will catch the flight by all means.....i want to be with hubby....for better or worse.....he's the one for me........

2005-04-12T18:23:00.000+08:00

Now i've found enjoyable way to kill my time here......read n learn urdu/hindi language...quite difficult actually but i believe in few years time i will master the language.....hehehehe....anyway my ancestors speak hindi so i have to "force" myself to learn the language.....Hubby will surely love me more n more......

2005-04-12T18:18:00.000+08:00

I'm bored to tears idling at home.....All i do is suf the net, call hubby , eat , sleep , go to shop buying stuff and listening to music.....I wish i could exercise my brain doing sumthing better.....want to watch my diet and learn how 2 be a good wife....

2005-04-11T17:01:00.000+08:00

I love My hubby alot.....little did i expect to face so many setbacks in life.......we r a victim of circumstances.....life has been rather unkind to us......Hubby said i will get my visa on 22nd april........so i can only fly there on 28th......Hopefully on 28th april all my misery will end......i'll be back in my hubby's arms....how i love hubby dearly

2005-04-10T12:45:00.000+08:00

feel so hurt.....i cant wait to be with hubby...Cried alot that feel strain in my eyes....My memory is failing....I tend to be forgetful these days n lost my way when going out.....i called hubby about 10 times yesterday.....No mood to go out anywhere...........Pray hard to go go there faster........And lead a happier life

2005-04-09T15:11:00.000+08:00

Feel terribly upset n wish i could do magic and change my destiny.....i have to delay my going there again.....hubby was not happy when i argue with him abt this......i have to face everyone questioning me regarding my visa application......where i put my face? he went out and enjoy himself with his beloved family while i'm here desperately lonely n miz him badly....spending little amount on them is nothing to him.....it's unfair when i'm alone here n keep calling u and been spending a bomb on phone bill....the hardest test is in marriage life......the greatest pleasure is also in marriage life if u r lucky to get a suitable life partner.......

2005-04-08T12:39:00.000+08:00

My adopted son.....Lily......wanna kidnap ur little boy.....he didnt cry at all.....it means he likes me.....hehehe

2005-04-08T12:37:00.000+08:00

Chatting with that silly billy Bahya.....Lily took a snap of me....thanks Lily coz my hubby want to c my latest picture.....

2005-04-07T18:32:00.000+08:00

Went out with my old good fren and her other fren......spent fun time together......she knows me inside out coz we face many similar prob.....miz her so much n miz those old good times....

2005-04-07T18:29:00.000+08:00

Had good food today....all delicious stuff at indian restaurant......feel so full yet on the way back i crave for Mc Donald's double fish fillet...so buy one n eat on the way home....spent alot at mustafa center today......many indian stuff......wow! this may be my last trip there before going to jeddah...........

2005-04-07T10:59:00.000+08:00

So cute rite dear this little boy...Lily's precious son.....one year old little boy.....May we have own kids very fast......So many educational toys at Toys 'r' us...feel like buying for own kids........but we have none now.....we'll save lots of money n buy educational toys for our naughty kids.....

2005-04-07T10:49:00.000+08:00

Me & Lily.....she was a lovely bride.... Wonder when i'll slim down and would be a stuning beauty...hehehe...i keep eating junk food as i feel terribly lonely.......

2005-04-07T10:47:00.000+08:00

At Lily's house......first time met her in person.....looking dull without my powder coz have been out for few hrs.....hubby.....this pic was taken yesterday only...so this is ur wife latest pic.....i'm still the same dear......it juz that my heart ache more n more each day...miz u badly

2005-04-06T23:24:00.000+08:00

Just called hubby....cried when talking to him....seeing my two frens with own kids upset me......juz had large size of Starbuck Mocha so feel so hungry when back at home....sadly no more food for me.... my mum tot i had eaten so she didnt save food for me....Called hubby crying n tell him wanna be there faster....called hubby soon after came back......he promised to buy me SQ ticket...so i wont feel bored during the 9 hrs long journey....can play VCD.....isnt it great......

2005-04-06T22:16:00.000+08:00

Had a lovely evening today.....met Lily n ida my childhood fren.....Their little kids r so cute and innocent.....Spend time at starbucks and then we went to lily's house...She showed her weding album...she was a beautiful bride...how i envy her.....If only could spend more time with them and roaming around....

2005-04-04T13:26:00.000+08:00

Fel extremely happy n less lonely today....my cloz fren who is staying in malaysia is back here on one week holiday......we r going out either this wednesday or thursday.......i feel so lonely since she got married n left to terengganu,malaysia.....we used to work together , chat long hrs over the phone and go out roaming around........now she's happily married and is a proud mother to a beautiful daughter.....cant wait for our outing day to cum......

2005-04-03T22:09:00.000+08:00

I cant wait till i've reached jeddah and be by hubby's side.....juz made another short call to him........hearing his voice makes my day.........i can spend sum hundred of dollars on internationl calls mthly but would rather starve myself then buying expensive meals.....hehehe..i'm so madly in love

2005-04-03T16:08:00.000+08:00

Dono why i've been feeling restless these days......maybe i feel bored staying at home.....maybe also it's bcoz me missing hubby........how i can end this misery? dono how to kill the time b4 going to jeddah........and i know even down there also i would be facing prob adapting to new environment and new life.......Life is always full of tensions and worries....

2005-04-02T21:51:00.000+08:00

Weekend is here again......So lonely without hubby....what kind of joke is fate playing on me.....So long i've been separated from hubby.....separation is a torment..... I WANT MY HUBBY.....I WANT MY HUBBY......

2005-04-02T10:08:00.000+08:00

I'm all confused.....i've made my reservation on 21st april and by 12 april i have to purchase the ticket to jeddah......but still dono yet when i'll get the family visa coz hubby has to change his PR status first..........I cant wait till i've got the visa in my hand b4 i really make my booking coz the procedure is that i have to purchase the ticket 2wks b4 leaving...... and recormfirm it 72 hrs b4 the flight take off.....else i have to pay $100 more as penalty fees..... i've been separated from hubby since 17 nov 2004.....how i can wait 2 wks longer......missing him makes me end up paying huge phone bill....i cant go on like this..... what i shall do??? God,help me.....

2005-04-01T19:00:00.000+08:00

What a day....another good woman has died.....She's my uncle's mother-in-law yet we r quite cloz n she is even better than many of many cloz relatives....a sad news......Life is short......we never know how much time we have left.....all the more we have to tressure our loved ones..... This makes me miz hubby more n cant wait to be by his side.....May she rest in peace...Even i wish to die on friday......A good sign of better life after death.....Amin....May Allah grant my wish.......but hey!!! not next friday but at least 40 years later......i've commited so many sins in life n havent done enuf good deeds yet......hehehehe.....

2005-03-31T12:02:00.000+08:00

What a lovely day.....Last nite had a nice chat with hubby online and he was wearing his smart black attire... he looks good in black.....it has been quite sum time since i last hug n kiz him....even i wish to be like other wife who is able to to greet hubby in the morning and at nite with hugs n kisses........it has always been my dream to be a dutiful and doting wife ......Been praying hard for that day to come.....

2005-03-29T11:10:00.000+08:00

It's raining this morning....feels so good after many days of hot weather.....Sadly having runny nose due to the coldness......The rain makes me enjoy sleeping more.....

2005-03-28T20:28:00.000+08:00

Nowdays my darling hubby seems so bz with his work......hopefully he wont tire out himself...pray for his gd health as well as for our wealth.....if only i'm there to tend to his needs and massage his tired body n leg.....he's earning hard for our own future sake......Darling...every bit of ur sweat will be paid off Insya Allah

2005-03-28T16:44:00.000+08:00

Tonite i'll have new set of TV..... feel like buying plasma TV but it's over budget quite expensive...have the money but wont spend it.....hehehe..... saw digital wall clock...so bought it.... another parting gift to my parents who has brought me up.....money is meant to be spent anyway.....at least they'll remember me this way...a filial daughter who will leave them maybe for sum years....

2005-03-28T16:26:00.000+08:00

Jus came back from my former workplace.... what a rude behaviour by my lady superior ....the devil in disguise... when she saw me she gave one kind of look...as if asking for a tight slap or a flying kick from me.....Fancy expect me to cum down again and assist them regarding the boy's school fees issue....i wish i would never step into that place again.....

2005-03-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

Sold my old TV for $200 so tomorrow i'll purchase a new one as a parting gift to my parents......What is a sum of money if it can brings u closer to one another and live in peace & harmony...... Tomorrow i will be going to my workplace to get my "retirement letter", then bank in some money and meet Shazia Jee, My sweet pal....So tomorrow gonna be a bz day for me...gd also coz i've been idling at home for so long......Gonna see the outside world.........

2005-03-25T22:15:00.000+08:00

Been having sleepless nite since sum mths ago...missing hubby badly.....so much love for him yet so much unpleasant moments i've experienced...how it breaks my heart not able to be by ur side....how time flies.... we have been married for 8mth today and yet barely 2mths spent time together.....isnt it reason enuf to break my heart n drive me to despair...

2005-03-25T21:59:00.000+08:00

Went out to my bro-in-law's house today for the 40th day tahlil.....Took the train and saw so many people going out with family...It upsets me alot.....when my time will cum......They are all together and enjoying themselves.....no matter what they have...where they spend time together......at a posh restaurant.....beach......park...cinema.....or even spending quality time together at home......how wonderful such life is....

2005-03-25T13:01:00.000+08:00

Why is it when people experience sweet moments together as hubby & wife esp during early stage of marriage yet here am i missing hubby terribly and worry abt the future.......I've always been down on my luck since i was small and been making wrong decisions in life but it's too high a price to pay......i experience bitter and darkest moment since the day i got married..........so many things keep haunting my mind......even my coming to life was a huge mistake.....

2005-03-25T12:56:00.000+08:00

Today is 25 April which is also my 8mth wedding anniversary.....I don feel happy at all.....Last nite had heated arguement with hubby...dono to love or hate him.....he said it will take another one mth to call me there....if this is just engagement i wont think twice to call it off.....but now i have to bame myself for such hasty decision.......how can any wife swallow being left for so long despite being newly married???

2005-03-24T16:33:00.000+08:00

Feel so restless sitting at home without much work to do....been working for so long and couldnt adjust to being jobless and cooping myself up at home.....Feel like going out for sum fresh air....or even take part-time job for sum days till i've got my visa and ready to fly there......Surf the net and watch hindi VCD all day bores me.....

2005-03-23T12:27:00.000+08:00

Last nite had a good chat with hubby.....He looks cuter and more dashing.....hehehe.....but at the same time one of his fren add me in his contact and chat with me as well....just casual talk abt hubby mostly.....Indeed not easy to get visa there very fast.... i will have to wait few more weeks as he has juz started his new job and has to change his PR status......hopefully wont take longer than 2 weeks from now......wanna be by ur side very fast dear....it has been slightly more than 4 miserable months....

2005-03-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

Another prob i'm facing.....one 6 year old kid claimed he has given his school fees to me....abt 2 mths ago....but i'm dead sure i did not take any fees from anyone.....another idiot parents.....shud take sum time off and cum down to pay the fees tehmselves......it's juz once every 3mths......now who would take the blame.....maybe he gave it to someone else or maybe he lost the fees and couldnt tell the truth for fear of getting beaten....i'll be in the soup this time.....Juz called the mother and feel like telling her off.....we don handle school fees....it's the front desk job.....

2005-03-22T12:08:00.000+08:00

This is giving me tension headache..... Y disturb my sleep.....been receiving calls from that bloody fool so often.....we have abt 14 other staff working in the same department...definitely they can guide her.....they still owe me $80 yet to be paid since jan......yet expect so much when giving so little.....i have other worries....miz hubby terribly n wanna be with him.....how can we stay apart for so long......spending very less time together....i shud be under his care not my family anymore..... life is so unkind to me.....

2005-03-20T19:01:00.000+08:00

So boring this sunday.....everybody is out enjoying themselves....hardly anybody online during wkend..... Only had little chat with my sick sister.....feel worst when everyday staying at home....With whom to go out with......I've quit my job n settle all my work.....they even have got a replacement yet they still ask me abt silly things regarding my work n expect me to go there this tuesday n enlighten the lady abt certain things she is blur abt.....she has called me asking abt petty stuff twice...so maddening.....shud use ur brain n take more initiatives......she's a fresh graduate but a mother of two..drawing better salary than me....this is more maddening.....

2005-03-20T13:28:00.000+08:00

Worried about my sister's mysterious illness.....What actually is suffering from.....Feel like flying to egypt soon...but what i can do there..two cloz one to her has been feeling sick too as they tend to her.....did anyone cast a spell on her.....she juz broke off her engagement......and the family ever did such things to sumone else......she's finishing her final year exam in 2mth time.....she's a bubbly sister of mine who would go to any length for her dearest one.....how can i leave her juz like that without doing anything?

2005-03-18T16:26:00.000+08:00

Hooray!! Hubby has sent me sum money..A good amount.....Now what weighing heavily on my mind is that can i really get my visa within this month.....badly miz hubby..yesterday i've lead 4 solid months without hubby...Guess how i feel....Money can be earned but loneliness how to cure it with money???

2005-03-15T16:44:00.000+08:00

A cool $88 for reflexology treatments today......This will be the last....... Not going to such places anymore.... Now my neck n head prob acting up.....Always like this after such treatment....Better rub with medicated oil.....Hubby would do a better job.....Before leave singapore i'll go for malay massage.......

2005-03-15T12:27:00.000+08:00

Feel bored sitting at home....so used to working...Today going for reflexology treatment and will bring my mum's along.....She's in poor health nowdays n need whole body massage too....So we'll go there together......Now i can sleep soundly at nite with no worries....Hubby can use the net in the office...so no need to wait anxiously for him and lose my sleeping hours....best thing is that i wont lose my temper and go mad again......

2005-03-14T10:19:00.000+08:00

Feel great today after a good sleep..... Last nite hubby only gave me a short call as he was in a meeting and his new working hours is different now..... He will send me sum money to tide me over and for me to spend......Happy that with this job which he's holding..... a better chance for me to go to there on family visa.....To be with him and build our own love nest together like other loving couples.....Patience is the key to every hapiness...In time to come Insya Allah everything will be wonderful for us as long as there's trust,love,understanding and of course have to put in alot of effort in doing sumthing and suffer setbacks..... this is a wild world.. Even me have to change my mindset and behaviour........Looks like it will be a "tough" job.....

2005-03-13T10:33:00.000+08:00

Last nite hubby came online wearing smart dress as he has has started his new job yesterday....Things will be brighter i hope.....Been praying hard for that.....I lost my sleep due to the excitement even in the morning still cant get to sleep.......Looking forward for a better tomorrow..... After a hard knock surely we can still get up on own feet and make a cumback......And lead a brand new life.......There's a lesson to be learnt in everything....

2005-03-11T10:40:00.000+08:00

Feel good today...Darling Hubby called me b4 he went to bed and i woke up from bed soon after that.....Time for me to change my blogskin.....Having potato chips... Yummy and crispy......Half of the nite been thinking about so many things which happend yesteray....Weird characters and me being muddle headed......Oh yeah! Yesterday my online fren Lily whom i've never met in person b4 saw me on my way to work....She could recongnize me.... Sadly i didnt notice her....Hopefully one fine day we'll meet up....Lily...No tailing please anymore... hehehe..juz joking

2005-03-10T20:55:00.000+08:00

My Independace Day.....Free from enemy's clutches.....Tension free now.......I do miz them a little.....been working there for almost 8years.....It feels like i grow up there..... from the age of 18 till now 26......So many people i've met..So many tensions i've felt...Few good frens i've made...... Somehow about 2yrs ago.... my juniors would make things difficult for me always as i'm fool type......I will miz those kids alo for suret.... Uuuuummmhhh...Feel like kissing those kids.....My pets are Amsyar, Feeras and some others....I miz them all actually..It juz that these few kids makes me mad and makes me laugh always.....So naughty,lazy and adorable...They are lovable......On my way back from work i passed by a shop selling stickers at discount price......So i bought some and will keep it....I do enjoy handling kids and reward them with stickers to inspire them to study harder and do better work.....

2005-03-10T20:38:00.000+08:00

I'm really puzzle...How do iunderstand the character of people..... They treat me like an arch enemy for no valid reason yet they still pool money and bought me a farewell gift and what guess what.......Some were even sad about my resignation....Tot they are all out to kick me......how do i understand people's character....One fellow she is juz a part-time there and got to know me a year ago we hardly talk to each other but at times even she is making faces at me yet......To my surprise she came from Yishun to Tampines juz to wish me good luck and say goodbye......I ws so touched and it makes me wonder who is at fault...who is the culprit to spread rumours about me and give me hell for 2yrs.......Till today i don even know what tales they have been telling.....I'm all confused...Life is so unpredictable so is people's character......

2005-03-10T13:25:00.000+08:00

Today is my last day at work most probably..... I have to go around to make clearance of my job and ask every head of department for their signiture as approval of my resignation and to ensure that i have return back every thing that belongs not to me..... I take nothing from others except for marker and other necessary things...... Feel so awkward have to go to them about 5 fellowi have to meet.....with that paper.......As if want them to wish me goodbye.......and give words of cormforts.....I'm more than happy to leave this place.....What upsets me is that i would miz those cute and naughty kids and for sure would miss getting salary credit to my account on every 22th of the month.....Hehehe

2005-03-09T20:57:00.000+08:00

What a pleasant surprise.......Little did i expect anyone to give me a farewell gift at work.....I did not wish for anything from anyone there coz of what i went thru with crazy people in the office.....Though i've often pool money together with them for buying gifts on certain occasions i dare not wish to get anything from them...Afraid they might say bad things about me......Such as i like that only want people to spend money on me...... But that demure lady got me a cute bear pouch and a lovely brooch....She juz came back from haj.....A smal gift but it's greatly appreciated by me........Been carrying the bear pouch with me since i got home.....Thanks alot for making me feel loved and cared for And most of all THANKS fo the kiz.....I got a kiz from her......